I read so many comments about “feeling sorry to spend money on yourself” and I so vividly remembered how it was for me.
I remember the first time I caught myself doing it: I go to the store to buy clothes for myself… and I end up first in the children’s section, and then in the men’s section 🤣
And I didn’t have the feeling that I was unworthy 🤷🏻♀️
It’s just that the child and the husband were in a higher priority place than me 🙉
This is work in two directions: learning to put my own needs first and, in stores, only looking for what I came for. The second was harder 🙃
After Maris launched his first online course (before that he only held offline seminars), he gave me an iPhone and an iPad.
And looking at my wild excitement, he asked why I hadn’t bought them for myself if I wanted them so much — you have the money, don’t you?!
I was stunned 😳
I can’t 🤷🏻♀️
For so many years I had been saving up little by little to take my daughter to the sea in the summer, that when the money appeared, I continued to spend the necessary minimum, putting aside the “surplus” for a rainy day.
First I saved up for a car, then — a down payment on an apartment… I got used to living in that mode!
Maris decided to “break the system,” my inner Plyushkin was howling in despair 🤣
When my laptop broke, he literally forced me to buy my first MacBook Pro 🙉
Even now I remember how much it cost in 2012 — 120 thousand rubles (~$3,870 USD at 2012 rate) 🥳
Liked a coffee machine — buy it! Can’t — I’ll buy it myself (fig sign emoji)
Literally the next day we had a fight, and I gave him back the money for the purchase 🙃
After moving to Riga, I wandered into a local designer mall.
I, absolutely indifferent to luxury (not my thing at all), spotted the most gorgeous insulated Armani pants with fleece — the kind you could even wear to a business meeting.
I saw the price tag of 400 euros and hung them back.
I come home, sharing my impressions of the shopping trip, and he says to me: Get dressed and don’t come back without the pants 🤷🏻♀️🥳
That was the last time I hesitated about whether to buy something or not, if I really wanted it…
The “recovery” process took three years!
👉🏻 I would be grateful for stories about how you overcame your own programming, if you had one ❤️
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