Since it was this particular part of the last Club session that resonated most with the participants, I decided to share a fragment that will be useful for everyone who, starting from the end of March to the beginning of April, just can’t seem to pull themselves together.
Hang in there, you are not alone in this process!
Alena Starovoitova
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Good afternoon, everyone. I’m happy to welcome you to the first themed session of April.
I don’t know about you, but I’ve noticed that without deeply experiencing something, it’s very hard to live.
For example, you gain some knowledge, you practice it, you seem to do something every day, but then it turns out that everything you’ve learned, everything you’ve integrated into your life, gets written so softly inside you that you stop noticing it.
When any information, any knowledge penetrates inside and becomes a part of life, you stop paying attention to it. This is very noticeable when you work with energies, especially high ones.
A wave comes, for example, you do an activation, you feel everything, it’s all great, and then after some time you try to connect and feel nothing. For many, this causes rejection; they put a label on it, “well, that’s it, the energy doesn’t work anymore.”
In reality, my experience shows the opposite; it’s just that all of this gets written so deeply inside you that it becomes a daily practice, and you stop paying attention to it.
The same thing happens with any information; you suddenly start to feel that everything is turning into routine and you want something new, something fresh. In such moments, I start to go and look for something that would be interesting, because our soul requires constant development, it needs to move somewhere.
It is constant development, evolution, that allows us to stay young, not to age {so the brain doesn’t dry up}.
… What’s wrong with your voice, are you tired?
No, I’m not tired, it’s just a certain state: I left the website, I left everything, for the last week I’ve been completely and totally immersed inside myself… something is being born, it’s more like a process of pregnancy, just not a physical one, but some kind of inner one; what will be born as a result — I can’t say.
Many people were tired, caught under the influence of the equinox energy, but for me, on the contrary, there was a strong surge, so much was done, and now it’s a state of rest, as if something deep inside is being restructured.
What this will lead to — I can’t say, each time the process is very interesting. There’s a course correction happening; what we planned in January is now changing drastically. What you already wanted to do — is no longer relevant.
When you are in a state of “in-between,” you understand that what was is no longer wanted or needed, and what will be you don’t yet feel or see… it’s an interesting process, we live through it constantly, and I am right in the middle of it.
I don’t think this is a collective state, rather a personal one, so I am rested, caught up on sleep, which hasn’t happened in a long time.
… You were saying, I also got that kind of consciousness — I wanted to go to a training, but I realized I have other tasks for the summer.
It seems to me there is a collective rescheduling, refocusing happening now. I can’t say if it’s for everyone or not, but there really is a feeling that even what was planned for January-February is no longer relevant now, as if you’re being pulled in a different direction.
To the extent this resonates with you, to the extent you need it… In my plans, for example, 2013 was very active, a lot of trips and seminars were planned, but now I realize the focus has shifted a bit in another direction.
And when you change, the entire space around you changes, and I see very big changes happening from all sides. The same globality that was declared for 2013 is turning from a different angle.
I planned to hold many inexpensive mini-seminars, but now I realize I’m leaning towards global, long-term programs in order to share my inner state and how I personally perceive the world.
There’s a lack of depth; I’m tired of working on individual topics; I want to present things globally, to give everything from a global perspective.
Maybe the restructuring is connected to this. Before, we would take a topic, examine it, and think that was enough. My main problem now is that I can’t come up with a club topic, because we take some separate point, a topic examined from different sides, but it’s still separate, and I’m not drawn to that separateness right now; I want to structure it so there are many topics, all leading to a single result over a long period of time.
It’s quite possible that this is the final result of all those reflections, the seeds that were planted during Max Simon’s coaching program. They themselves move globally, approach everything globally. Maybe the process started inside, or it’s a sign of the times; we’ll find out later.
While the process is ongoing, I can say that I am going through it, but what it will lead to, and how relevant it is for everyone, I cannot say. But the process is happening — that’s for sure.
… Dreams are very vivid.
A very strong reprogramming is happening inside; clear understanding comes every day.
We will be talking about the 7 main chakras — these are the levels of consciousness that govern our everyday life, but there are deeper levels that are now opening up en masse without much effort.
We don’t know about this, we don’t direct our attention to it, but it starts to open up, and from this come all the shifts: depth appears, a more voluminous view of absolutely everything.
When such processes are triggered, a review of absolutely everything is required; no matter what situation appears in life, it needs to be reviewed under this new vision.
The difficulty is that while this view hasn’t formed, you’re feeling your way, shining a flashlight on one part, then another, but there’s no complete picture yet. This is probably the clearest description of what is happening with many people right now. So we see fragments, we can make conclusions, but there is no complete picture yet; we are going through this process.
I hope you won’t get lost and will be attentive to this, allow yourself to rest when you feel like blowing off work, when you want to dive into emotions, if you have that feeling inside, although I don’t observe peak emotions, but maybe for some it will go that way.
The process is global — something inside is opening up, being written, and the intermediate period is difficult because there is no focus, no clarity. You’ve left point A, haven’t arrived at point B yet, you’re still in the process, so increased attention to yourself, more love, care — this helps a lot in any situation.
… I closed myself off at home, I don’t go anywhere, I don’t communicate with anyone.
This is a signal that a complete immersion into yourself is happening. External contacts are not needed.
I’ve been observing how this happens for 2 years, but it’s hard to say here that it’s all tied to me, because Maris and I have such a tandem, where we complement each other so well that, in principle, external contacts aren’t needed.
Even the child is not part of this closed system; he’s like an outside element that has access everywhere, but by definition is not part of this system. And it’s roughly the same in relation to myself personally.
Yesterday I was invited to visit, a good company, close friends, but there was absolutely no need to socialize. The need to talk about vague topics disappeared.
Who has noticed that they don’t feel like talking, and all external topics, conversations are completely irrelevant, you don’t even want to engage in them?
I watched Maris; you ask him a question, and he cuts it off. The child says something, and he says: why do you need that?
The process is directed towards inner immersion, when you are inside yourself and the external world seems to exist separately. You want to put a strong wall between yourself and everything else. Hence these manifestations. You dive deep inside yourself.
What is the process of immersion into yourself?
Contacts with the outside world are interrupted; this is precisely the birth of something new. I was surprised when everyone started congratulating us on the holidays; I went online and saw that we have a very big gap for Easter: Catholics on March 31st, Orthodox will have it on May 5th. Easter is not a religious holiday, but a process of birth.
By the way, the broadcast on May 5th falls on Easter. Even the process of death, spiritual rebirth, when you go deep inside yourself and check what still serves you or no longer serves you, what you need to let go of…
There can be many explanations, it doesn’t matter which one is right or wrong; the main thing is to be attentive to yourself and not sink into a state of stupor and quagmire. In reality, it’s not like that.
It’s just that when you are deep inside, everything worldly and external bothers or worries you little; from the outside it can look very strange, especially for close ones and relatives who want to, like, communicate, but there is no common topic, and no desire to engage; this is all normal, natural.
There are 90 of you in the live stream right now, and many of you are experiencing a similar state. And where there are 90, there are millions going through it too…