At the end of May, we launched the stream of the course “Dance with the Shadow.” Although the topic itself has long been familiar to us, it was this particular combination of practices, questions for awareness, and tools for working with the shadow that turned out to be truly unique. The course included simulators, tests, and other materials that worked much deeper than we expected.
We recorded the course a year ago, and since then, many people have taken it. The first stream was in September. That’s when unexpected feedback started coming in — truly enthusiastic responses. And what’s surprising: the strong effect manifested not only as an accumulated result of the course, but even from the simplest tools.
At the same time, we launched another course — “Energy Upgrade.” It contains many practices related to energy. We started with balancing and cleansing the chakras, and already at this stage, amazing feedback came in.
Participants shared that they feel an incredible depth and wholeness of the processes. If in “Dance with the Shadow” an inner ocean opens up, here it feels as if new harmonious structures are being built.
The practices become a kind of keys that unlock a person’s access to internal reservoirs of wisdom.
The overall conclusion is one: the processes that are triggered in these courses are much deeper than before. At some point, it’s as if something divine intervenes, and it begins to guide the person.
For me, this became an important observation. We will discuss the depth of unpacking and its phases in this article.
What speaks about the depth of your unpacking
Changes in people’s reactions
Back in March–April, it became noticeable that serious changes were taking place. It’s not just that some familiar tools stopped working — the very reaction of people and the nature of interactions changed.
An inner sense of change had been present for a long time, but the mind could not grasp what exactly had changed. It was as if there weren’t enough facts to draw a conclusion.
Perhaps you, too, have had this feeling that something has fundamentally changed — for example, your business stopped working, or less money started coming in, or, on the contrary, everything started working too well, money increased many times over, and people became more responsive?
In other words, changes are there, but they manifest differently — sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse. But since you don’t understand what exactly has changed, this depth is what helps.
Sometimes, just a small question is enough, whose task is to jog your memories, so you stop lying to yourself.
How a deep dive into yourself happens
Today there is a lot of lying — both in the world and in the topic of spiritual development. The lying is often directed at oneself, when a person stops perceiving themselves and reality soberly.
But at some point, a special immersion occurs. Something eternal, boundless, and unshakable begins to manifest through you — that very thing with which we have tried to establish contact for many years. This is no longer a matrix or dual principle, but a completely different quality of perception.
The main condition is inner readiness. But this does not mean “just sit down and decide: I am ready.”
If you ask people: “Who is ready for a deep immersion, for opening themselves up so much that it flows through them?” — most will answer that they are ready. Others will begin to doubt, asking clarifying questions. But in reality, it is not that simple. This is not about the mind, not about the desire to get something “for being ready.”
True immersion is a coincidence of many factors. Internally, you become so transparent and open that any small event — a word you hear, a course, even some trifle — can work like a key. It fits into the lock, and the process of deep unfolding is triggered.
In reality, this is not so much a “descent” as it is an ascent. It feels as if you are being turned inside out, but in a good way: that part of you which we previously perceived as external—the Higher Self, the Monad—begins to speak through you.
And this is not rare, nor is it an experience limited to a select few. Such processes are becoming more and more common now; this is observed in many people.
Sometimes familiar practices unexpectedly start working in a new way. The very same tools that six months or a year ago yielded no particular result suddenly unfold with incredible power. A natural question arises: why is this so?
The answer is simple—a convergence of many factors. It is both inner work, an honest look at oneself, and a readiness to bring out what was previously hidden deep inside.
See also: What prevents you from being honest with yourself
Three phases of deep unpacking
Phase #1: Self-deception and confrontation with reality
It is important to step away from your own righteousness, because the level of self-deception in which we exist is colossal.
What works in the “Dance with the Shadow” course? It would seem that we work with the shadow there, which is a very specific category. If you analyze it, drawing a conclusion from the revelations that occur there, you suddenly admit to yourself that, despite being convinced of the exact opposite, your focus all these years has been directed outward.
And not just an admission in words, but as a result of the fact that when you suddenly turned inward, that is where the wealth opened up.
But can you imagine how painful it is to admit this? Yet when you step over this painful admission, that depth inside you opens up. And people have honestly started writing about it.
Essentially, what is happening?
You are actually facing the fact that you have been deceiving yourself for a long time. And you sit like that old woman at the broken trough. Because your conviction, your confidence, was in the exact opposite.
And here comes the collision with reality — a crash test.
Phase #2 Inner Shock
At this moment, many things collapse. These walls collapse. It is not only self-deception; ideas about something collapse. And you sit, shaken to the core, realizing how much you lived in an illusory reality created by your own mind.
In such moments, tears flow. On one hand — from joy that something alive and real has finally broken through inside. On the other — from disappointment in your own blindness. But it is these very tears that wash away self-deception and open access to the boundless parts of your self.
Phase #3 A New Level of Revelation and Depth
The changes happening now are very noticeable even on a physical level. Against the backdrop of an unclear emotional state and irritation, which seems to trail behind like a plume, many people begin to look completely different on the outside. But this is not true for everyone, and not because someone is “special” or “better than others.”
It is simply that some people have changed radically inside, and these internal changes begin to shine, manifesting outwardly. While others continue to live by “correctness” and judgment, like a hamster on a wheel. This has become the other side of what we have all faced.
On one hand — there is magic and depth, which is hard to believe. Consciousness begins to work as if a chain reaction is triggered: touch one detail — and everything around starts to change.
But since this barrier is removed, wherever you look at that moment, everything begins to seemingly align with greater depth, with greater wisdom, with greater understanding, a sense of self, and, most importantly, with tremendous love through the acceptance of different versions of yourself.
What Hinders Deep Unpacking
Righteousness and Judgment
I saw this process in the “Dance with the Shadow” course.
Because besides shadow work, you have to repeatedly return to states like: “I am angry,” “I am furious,” “I am stupid,” “I am not enough,” “I am not sexy,” “I am not that way.”
I always say: “Give a voice to all these parts! To all of them.” Because in the new reality, it is impossible to be fragmented into parts.
You can be incomplete, because a large part of you is still there, okay. But when you castrate yourself with your own hands through your righteousness or your judgment of other people — that is impossible.
And the further you go, the more anger, irritation, and rage this will evoke in you. Not because they are freaks and idiots, but because it will be impossible to continue living in such a castrated state.
You can wrap this in a pretty package about wholeness and self-acceptance, but essentially you castrate yourself with your judgment and your righteousness, placing yourself above other people.
See also Judgment — the main brake on the path of spiritual development
The Illusion of Clarity and Avoiding Honest Acknowledgment of What Is
We often say: “I understand it intellectually.” And this is the main trap. When the mind is in charge, it creates an illusion of clarity, but in reality, we remain in a vicious circle.
When the mind is in charge, it creates an illusion of clarity, but in reality we remain stuck in a vicious cycle — this is one of the classic cognitive distortions that prevent us from seeing ourselves honestly.
For example, in the course “Dance with the Shadow,” we added a couple of body practices, one of which is lying on a bolster to straighten the spine.
And then in response, people write: “And I thought everything was fine with my body, that I love it and take care of it, but judging by the results, it turns out I’ve been ignoring it for years.”
Right now, the key important point will be honesty, an honest acknowledgment of how things are. But most of us, unfortunately, cannot do this, because it is not just a single fact.
Imagine there is a pebble in your hand. It is separate. It has edges. But I clearly understand that this pebble is in one hand, and it is not in the other. But our mind does not work that way.
And so it turns out that there is one thing — yes, I acknowledge it. But if I acknowledge it, immediately it pulls along: “I’m not the way I should be,” “I will end up alone,” “No one will love me.”
And then it is easier to not touch it at all and not even look there. Otherwise, all of this, connected to the feeling of inadequacy and worthlessness, will come along.
See also Filters of the mind, mental distortions, assumptions. How to see the truth behind all this
Summary
The trigger can be anything: someone’s phrase, a movie, a course, a question — you encounter reality, self-deception. The second phase is shock, upheaval, and crocodile tears.
But do not get stuck in this; when you have cried it out, lived through that state, find the strength within yourself to give thanks and rejoice. And see what has changed inside, because this is where deep unpacking begins.
It is precisely this way — through honesty with yourself, through a willingness not to know — that true immersion into yourself begins, leading to a new level of wholeness and clarity.
Are you familiar with the process of unpacking and diving into yourself? What was the most difficult part for you and what valuable did you gain as a result?