Excerpt from a companion webinar for those who:
- experienced the month of May extremely intensely, on any level — emotional, mental, physical,
- feel they have been “stuck” at their current level of development, but haven’t been able to move forward yet.
A new powerful wave of energy is already here.
You either ride its crest and feel all-powerful, or you fall off it due to the “human factor” kicking in: I can’t, it won’t work, I’m not ready…
I don’t see the point in describing at length what will only take 12 minutes of your attention )))
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If my observations resonate with you, write comments!
If not, congratulations… this cup has passed you by… for now.
How is your mood? Has the emotional storm calmed down? The eclipses are over, but emotions are still jumping. I’ll share what I’m feeling on a slightly more advanced level. I can’t say anything about what’s happening with beginners, with complete newbies, because too many things are coming out of balance.
-Everything is coming in waves, a great state, it’s getting easier, but sometimes it shakes you up.
It’s just that May was hard for many. For some, emotionally; for others, the speed of life was such that they couldn’t cope, they couldn’t slow down – everything was needed yesterday, not even today, but yesterday. Some were emotionally tossed about: a sharp rise, then a nosedive down. For others, situations on the physical plane flared up, all sorts of conflicts. Everything that was previously unmanifested suddenly seemed to pour out of a sieve, all at once.
The situations were different, but with the last eclipse at the end of May, things more or less stabilized. But most importantly, a very strong energy came, the energy of action, which pushes you to take things and do something. As you understand, in order to do something, you need to know where to go. And when there is no such understanding, and what’s even more serious, the understanding seems to be there – not even at the level of the mind, but in the heart there is a feeling of what I need to do – but in life I can be unsure, I can doubt, or my head thinks that some elements are missing to do it. Someone thinks they need to work something out first, or take some initial step before going there.
This is an energy that literally pushes you toward the realization of something global. It could be just an awareness, some major changes in your personal life, or something more serious when you are walking the path of serving others. In any case, behind this energy is something large-scale. And it simply picks you up and pushes you.
But, as you understand, when something grandiose looms ahead, it frightens the human part. And then a breakdown occurs: the soul rushes, strives, it feels this energy, feels this sensation that yes, it’s great there, but the human part is trembling. Plus, the mind kicks in – it tells you that first you need to do this, this, and this, and only then will that thing you feel inside be possible.
As you understand, the process of self-discovery is endless. Each time we dive deeper and deeper, we begin to see the smallest details, things that were previously completely inaccessible. Those people who know nothing about themselves at all just tremble in fear and don’t understand at all that they feel a call, that there is something ahead. So the advantage is with those who know and feel, because it’s easier that way.
But this pendulum – up, then down – it persists. When you tune in – you have strength, the plan is laid out, everything seems clear and bright – then enlightenment in the brain sets in. And then it’s as if again – the days aren’t gray, and everything around is understandable – but it’s as if there’s no energy, you’ve just stepped aside from this flow.
There is a huge, powerful flow that is going somewhere, toward something global. You fit into it. But, due to personal qualities, some conflicts, emotions, experiences, the daily grind that might have gotten to you, or different situations (seemingly already worked through, but they still pop up, and in full force, especially if you doubted somewhere – it’s as if the wind throws it all in your face: “Come on, can you handle this or not?” – endless challenges) the human part switches control to itself. It seems joyful and beautiful, but it’s such… “sticky” – I would say, probably.
It’s not gloomy, not depressive, but somehow not your own and sticky, as if you get stuck there. Then you tune back into this flow, and you go in it again. These switches will happen; we are multifaceted. “Tune in” is a very beautiful word, meaning that all parts of us (whether manifested or unmanifested, whether we know them or not) tune in together. And when you tune in, everything unfolds beautifully in this flow. Then suddenly you doubt. For a while, you won’t stop, but you’ll just switch to a more human part of yourself.
These switches will happen until the path becomes clear, because the brain needs a picture. It needs steps that need to be taken. And when there are only feelings, and no ready-made recipe for the mind to shut up, there can be dips. So there’s no need to do anything special right now, just increase faith in yourself, that everything is happening exactly as it should, and in any case you are winning from it. But again, don’t stop if you suddenly fall very deeply, accidentally fall into a depressive state, or emotions are splashing.
Because sometimes you don’t want to do anything. You can say: “Oh well, it’s summer now, everyone is resting.” And you fall out of this usual working rhythm. You relaxed, but you don’t want to go back. For those familiar with school holidays, or student breaks, or any vacation period, remember the state when you rested for a long, long time. At first it’s hard to relax, then it takes about a month to get into the working rhythm while all systems mobilize. A similar process is happening now.
Although I won’t undertake to describe how it happens for ordinary people, those we meet on the streets, because I can’t even imagine. But most likely physical, painful sensations appear, the most ordinary interpersonal conflicts on the basis of daily life flare up, and probably health problems. I won’t presume to say; I haven’t talked to such people for a long time. Surely it manifests for them too in some way.
— Apparently it’s stormy, little tests.. we perceive life as it is.
The hardest thing is when they hit things that are either already worked through, or that undermine your foundation, the basis of everything you believe in. Well, for example, you believe there is support, that you are not alone. And suddenly, some situation happens where you feel that absolutely everyone has turned away from you. This stratification of reality happens, and at that moment you really think so.
More precisely, you can think so, because that’s exactly how it looks. Friends suddenly fall overboard, are busy, or something is happening. The family you turn to might very well tell you to get lost. It’s like a confluence of circumstances, completely non-random, but a confluence of circumstances when you suddenly realize that what was just beginning to strengthen and take root suddenly turned out to be an illusion.
That’s why they say – these are challenges. They are truly challenges, because you have to cope with them.
Here, faith in yourself kicks in, in what I live by, in what I do, in how much I will remain in all of this.
And you need to allow yourself fewer excuses. I myself have been in this process for, I think, the second month now. It’s so interesting to observe. I know what the next level is, I know how to get there, everything is almost ready, I need to take a few simple actions. And it’s precisely those actions, as a result of which it would be done quickly and easily, that I don’t have. And for now, it’s such a prolonged pause.
A pause prolonged consciously on my part. But the point is that in any case, the next stage already exists, the old one is absolutely no longer satisfying.
You understand that you have outgrown, not just grown out of your pants, but completely outgrown – the sandbox is not yours. There it is, the stage. Certain steps are needed, and you can sabotage for as long as you like, switch to other things, but you still need to do it. And this is precisely one of the reasons why it might be stormy. It’s the human part again. And the faster this passes, the better. But, again, you don’t need to force yourself. Remember: the pause belongs to you, you can press the “pause” button at any moment, and stay in that state for a little while until you are internally ready. But it depends on how long it stretches out.
Sometimes, indeed, when it’s the first time, just: “Oh! Wow, it’s so global, big, you can get scared.” You press pause, time passes, and you just get used to the thought. And in fact, on an energetic level, a tuning of everything happens, a restructuring inside your entire organism, where there is consciousness, thinking. All your levels are restructuring under the idea that you are now ready. Before a plane takes off, it undergoes a full analysis of all onboard systems, they check, refuel, fill it up – it’s very similar to what’s happening now. So what seems like a pause or cowardice is sometimes necessary. For the plane to take off at full strength, to deliver people to their destination, it needs to be loaded, checked, and a whole bunch of different actions performed.
If someone was really shaken up in May, when all sorts of different fears surfaced – these are situations thrown in your face. Keep in mind that this is your challenge, that you are standing on that path. I say this confidently now; for those who asked questions about this, a lot has already been passed.
Keep in mind that there is simply a huge field of new horizons before you. And you yourself may not have realized it yet, and are slightly sabotaging the entry there. But again, you can take any pause, for as long as you need to tune in and get used to this thought.
Don’t stretch it out unnecessarily, because otherwise a kick in the pants will quickly give you acceleration. It’s better not to let it get to that point. But you need to take care of yourself and get used to something so global, so grandiose. The thought I am getting used to is that I need a very large team. If before I just thought (I said for several months that I needed one or two people), now I have accepted the fact that there really should be at least 5 people who will work. That means they need to be coordinated, and it’s this part that causes self-sabotage. I don’t want to command anyone or coordinate anyone. And it won’t work on its own. But that’s my human part kicking in. When you just acknowledge some fact, it gets easier from there. But sometimes it takes time to acknowledge something.