After I didn’t get to “stand on stage” at Pepper Lewis’s seminar, the Universe threw me another chance…
📍In December 2008, Victoria Makarova, the organizer of Steve Rother’s seminars in Russia, reached out to me.
Steve is coming to Moscow with a big seminar, and a translator is needed.
It was “Initiation into the Metaphysics of Lightworkers,” which brought together facilitators who worked with healing methods passed down by the Group.
📍We worked together — one day Katya Fedorova translated, the next day I did.
I constantly kept eye contact with Steve — it was easier to overcome my difficulty in processing a male voice audibly.
📍I lived at Vika’s house, and I had the opportunity to fully immerse myself in the organizational and work-related aspects of running the seminar — to see what usually stays behind the scenes.
Since we worked every other day, in my free time I was a participant in the seminar and did the practices and assignments along with everyone else.
📍I was “lucky” enough to go through the death practice, where you imagine that you have died, are lying in a coffin, and loved ones come to say goodbye to you.
I remember how during this meditation I would periodically feel my body: I had my own task — to cross over to the other side along with my body 😉
📍Steve’s next visit was scheduled for February 2009. Katya and I were invited to continue our collaboration as translators for the seminar and individual consultations.
⚠️ Some kind of financial stability was looming ahead.
I calculated the approximate amount I would receive for my work and realized that with that money I could already afford to rent an apartment and move out from my parents’ place, where I had come with my daughter after an unsuccessful cohabitation.
The money I earned was quite enough for several months of rent — not so scary to take a risk!
📍Katya lived in Moscow, so it was decided that she would translate at Steve’s free meeting with readers, and I would arrive by night train from Orel just in time for the seminar itself.
I had already packed all my things, the train was about to leave, when the phone rang.
Vika calls and says: Steve asked me to tell you that Katya is handling it fine on her own, your translation services are not needed. But you can come to the seminar as a participant. For free.
Everything fell apart like a house of cards…
One thought was pounding in my head: You were NOT chosen. You are NOT needed. You were NOT chosen. You are NOT needed.
It was terrifying. And hard.
A sleepless night. I cried, felt sorry for myself, tried to calm down, couldn’t, and a new wave of pain.
My ego howled like a wounded animal.
By morning, Grace descended upon me! The cold that had gripped my heart was gone. I experienced such a flow of Gratitude and Love.
It’s hard to put into words… It was like a rebirth, when your sense of self and your worth does NOT depend on whether you are chosen or not.
I called Vika and said: I’ll come!
She was overjoyed like a child and shouted into the phone: Steve, she got it, she’s coming!!!
It’s symbolic that Steve Rother’s seminar was called “Sexual Energy for the New Earth. Love and Sexuality in the Energies of the New Planet Earth”! 😆
I learned the second lesson from Steve well: don’t divide money you haven’t earned yet. Under no circumstances. And I still follow it to this day…
P.S. I did end up renting the apartment, with 6 thousand in hand to pay for the first month and no idea what I would do next 🥳