In the first two articles, we talked about awakening, the stage of merging with the soul, and the transition to the next stages — interaction with more advanced parts of you (the Higher Self and the Divine Self).
Between these stages, there is a transitional moment — a feeling of being lost and suspended between Heaven and Earth, when the familiar, habitual, and established stops working.
Read on to learn how to get out of this state.
How the feeling of being lost becomes a transition point
The feeling of being lost is not a dead end. It is a transition point. Everything started precisely from such a moment.
My moment of transition to the next stage
“Keys of Mastery,” October 2010, appeared exactly at such a moment. It was my transition moment.
We had a joint project with Larisa Artamonova — “New Tools of the Spirit.” We talked about spiritual matters there, then I decided to ground the information a bit, wanting to talk about something simple and joyful — working with the body, with my energy. But I realized I had lost contact with the audience.
I decided to start my own project. That project remained with Larisa, and she continued working with that spiritual audience. And we went on to talk about more down-to-earth things.
This is what is called “coming down from heaven to earth.” That was my process.
The same thing can happen to you. One way or another, you will come out of the transformation topic, but to move forward, you need to understand what is there, at the next step.
For this, I have compiled a huge article with plenty of examples and signs to make it clear. Read the series of articles from awakening to ascension.
When, after merging with the soul, you move to the next stage — interaction with the Higher Self (OverSoul), direct interaction with your soul companions and kindred souls begins there.
The essence of it is that the personal is no longer a priority. Hence this feeling of being lost. The personal hands over the reins to your soul, which is not somewhere out there, but within.
The need for hermitage, immersion inward
For many of you, this may manifest as a desire to withdraw from society. It is a kind of hermitage, a seclusion.
This does not mean you have gone off to a monastery, but you want to communicate less, even if you were hyperactive and industrious. You immerse yourself inward, you want to be in nature, to be silent, to speak less.
The main thing is not to get stuck in this phase, because the stage of interaction with people is important; you are switching from the personal to something greater.
The Oversoul, the group of souls. The group is group work. At this stage, you begin to feel that you are part of something greater, a whole, that all the experience you have lived through and undergone has benefited not only you but everyone. And now you can begin to share this experience.
Instead of focusing on the personal, you begin to bring light to other people. This can manifest in different ways; there are no specific things here.
At first, I was a teacher at a school. Then I started making translations of channelings because I was an English teacher.
And in parallel, I transformed. Inside, there was a desire to share — I found a little gem, let me share it with you and with everyone who is ready. And then you begin to be guided further.
See also From hermitage to collective co-creation. How to interact with people while preserving your inner light
How to go through being lost and emerge into service
My Experience of Engaging in Work with People and Service
Then, through translations by Michelle Eloff — the channel of Kuthumi Agrippa, I ended up at webinars.
She conducted activations there, where the word “Russia” was constantly mentioned. I said, listen, how can you conduct activations for foreigners and talk about Moscow and St. Petersburg while being in South Africa, when here, on the ground, there are people who are ready and willing to participate.
And we decided to gather a group of interested people and conduct an activation online. Michelle posted it as text, and I had to translate it. Larisa read it, and I translated.
I only realized later that we were hosting webinars. The idea was completely different. Neither to gather people nor to earn money. Well, how could it be, letting an opportunity pass by? They are doing something in St. Petersburg, and we have people who are from St. Petersburg and in other corners of Russia. Why not connect them?
And that’s how I ended up at the webinars.
Then another interesting story happened. Since I was doing all the translating, and Larisa was conducting it, we got to the paid materials. We didn’t have the money to buy them, so I wrote to Michelle and offered to become her representative in Russia, her translator.
She agreed and suggested translating the paid materials. We figured out the payment system and started selling. We did this not for ourselves; we wanted to give this to people. We sent all the money to her.
Once, Larisa was conducting an activation of one of the Cosmic Laws, and afterwards she was drained, like a lemon, because she had let a powerful flow pass through her, and at the end people were asking questions. And I started answering them.
At some point, I caught myself that I had been answering for 30 minutes. That is, I was leading. I never wanted to lead anything for anyone.
Then Larisa suggested trying to lead something of our own, sort of like it’s not as scary together. So we went to the broadcasts together. We conducted courses, she would talk about some things, I would talk about others, sharing our own experiences.
Was any of this planned? No. Can I say that I wanted this? No. We were simply being pushed.
Now you have known me for many years as a coach. If someone had told me back then that things would turn out this way, I would have hidden. I was neither morally nor internally ready.
But since they pushed so gently, you take a step, the next one opens up, you take a step, the next one opens up, and each time you overcome yourself: responsibility, money, something else, and who knows what else.
And through this you grow, but the main thing is that this transition happens from one stage to another. At the end, you switch from “everything for myself” to a level of service, because you have already worked to the maximum, cleared the main Augean stables.
And this is the answer to the question of why some people get stuck at the stage of merging with the soul for 20-30 years. Because they continue to live in the mindset paradigm of everything for me, me, me, me.
See also: Contract Change, or A New Path of Service
“What if I just want to live?”
We had enough people in the Telegram channel who wrote: “I just want to live.”
Okay. That is your choice to step on the same rake, to fail over and over, to go through the same cycles. Because opportunities will keep being presented.
This echoes how psychologists describe resistance to change: the more strongly a person clings to their familiar reality, the more painful each subsequent cycle becomes.
And here there is a direct analogy with these windows of opportunity for awakening: 2000-2012, 2012-2024, the next window began in 2024.
They do not open by chance; they try to push everyone out. Moreover, on a mass scale. This is not about one person who prayed all their life, sat in an ashram or a cave. It is on a mass scale.
They put you in such a “Z” pose that only two options remain: either to kick the bucket and be reborn in a new body—maybe then your brains will be smarter—or to be pushed through to the end.
There is no chance here to sit back and rest on your laurels. This is endless development, endless movement.
But what is the benefit of “just living”? If you go through the same cycle of transformation year after year, you realize that with each time, the tension is greater, the stress is greater, the pressure is greater, because you resist with all your might. Can this be called life?